Teaching, Avalon, Angels, Gifts, and The Craft.

I'm a bit confused. I've found out a lot but the more I find out the more questions I have. I know where to go to get them answered, but I don't want to.

I found out that I am an Elf. I belong to Avalon, like I thought I did. Everything has a different name to different people. Everything is one.

I miss everything, there's so much I need to do and haven't. I've been told not to go and help Gabriel in the vision I had, which is very hard since he is one of my most beloved Angels. I need to go and fight in the battle of light and dark, everlasting as it is I must fight this demon that passed onto the Archangel Michael - though I know it was really mine to fight. I must overcome my fear and defeat my foe. I must also go to Avalon. I need to visit, there is information there that they want me to know, I'm not sure why, but I'm needed there.

I want to know why people are drawn to me, to learn from me. I understand it as it is my angelic mission from God to bring people back to him, and I do that by teaching of the Angels and the Astral Realm, how people may contact them, about all things spiritual that I know so that people know about them, even if they don't believe they come to me willingly. It slowly opens their minds to God. There are many paths to get there, some more false than others, however they all lead to the same end.

I have a lot of gifts, and yet I have the feeling that I'm loosing them. The reading about grounding my skills, is it really grounding them, or having them taken from me because I've had them for as long as I needed? What is my true role here on Earth? I know my missions, but Earthlings love labels, so what is mine?

I've had my initiation into The Craft after the Goddess requested it. I got a lot of stick from other people as they did not understand that I was only doing the God and Goddesses bidding. As far as I am concerned, the God and Goddess know more than any High Priest or Priestess on this planet. After my initiation I got so defensive that I realised I was as bad as the people offending me, and slagging off my beliefs, as I did not respect their lack of respect for mine. I should have been patient and let it slide. I let ego get in my way of judgement.

I need to meditate.